Realization of how un-sexy stretchmarks are...ugh!

I realized today that I am going to Bear Lake in 3 months... my body is not in any shape to be in a swimsuit. I tried them on tonight just to see how it would look. Not a pretty sight!!! Stretch marks from having a baby is just not a great way to feel/look good in a bikini. I think that Bear Lake might be the motivation that I have needed to start working out again. The hard part is that Makenzie is only 3 months old- so I can't really do a whole lot while I'm watching her- and I don't have a gym membership...hmmm...

Also- the cookies, cake, banana bread, brownies, birthday cake & ice cream are not making losing weight any easier!! I keep justifying what I'm eating- but the truth is, I have been eating more junk than real food in the last week, and it makes me physically feel disgusting, and sick to my stomach. My willpower sucks! But- I think I'm going to put a more conscious effort into eating a little better (keep in mind I'm a picky eater), and working out.

I think I'm going to try taking my daughter on walks every night after work. I know that won't drop pounds, but at least it will get a little exercise in. I would take my dogs too- but if you know my dogs- you know that it's not a good idea to take them along with the stroller unless I want it to be tipped over and dragged along behind them.

Now that I'm done complaining...I think I'll go do my short workout before bed, and maybe start fresh tomorrow. My goal is to lose AT LEAST 10 pounds by August, but who knows if I can do it or not...wish me luck!

Catching up

Hello again!! It's been a while. A lot has happened since my last post, but I won't bore you with everything.

I got sick a while back. I was so dizzy that I couldn't even take care of Makenzie! That was no fun! Luckily, I have amazing family members that were willing to help out when needed. Don't worry, I'm much better now!

On May 3rd- we got Makenzie blessed. Her uncle Zach blessed her. He did a really good job, and we really appreciate that he was able to do it. He drove out to Taylorsville from Layton for only an hour or so because his little boy was sick. Sad!! We then had a small get together at my house afterwards. It was nice to have family and a few friends stop by. Makenzie looked so cute in her blessing dress!! Unfortunately we didn't get as many pictures as I would have liked. By the time we got home from Sacrament meeting she was hungry so we hurried and got a few pictures. We had to change her into something else to feed her because we didn't want her to get formula on her dress. She's a messy eater!! :)

Last week I had to go back to work... :( It's hard every morning. I got quite accustomed to spending all day with Tyler, and Makenzie! I miss both of them a lot every single day that I go to work. The good news is that it makes me appreciate every minute I spend with them that much more! My weekends are so much more important to me now than they were when I was on maternity leave. Because now I actually have to do something during the week.

Time goes by so quickly, doesn't it? Seriously! Where did March go, and April? And now May is more than halfway over. My baby is already 10 weeks old! Crazy! She's adorable, fun, happy, and did I mention adorable! I have so much fun with her- especially now that she smiles at me, and not just during her gassy times...lol. I say "I love you Makenzie", and she gets a really big grin on her face almost every time! I love it! Unfortunately, when I try to get it on video- the camera distracts her so I can't get her to do it as much. She is just mesmerized by the lights.

So, on Saturday, my uncle Greg hosted a party at his house for all of the cousins. Tyler, Kenzie, Laurie & I all went together. We ate bbq food (my hot dog was pretty much burnt to a crisp- but you don't complain when someone else provides the food...), played Guitar Hero world tour with some of the cousins. Most of us were too chicken to sing, but Tyler rocked out! lol. He has fun with Karaoke type stuff. I played the guitar- I am pretty good at that. BUT- ONLY on the video game...hand me a real guitar and you'll have to cover your ears!!!

Sorry for the random spurts of info on my life during the last month- I'm at work and getting distracted easily... Hopefully during the next week or so I'll be able to actually work the whole time I'm at work...we'll see.